Monday, June 30, 2008

what a busy weekend

Sorry for those of you who actually read my blog for not posting anything new for a few days. I've been very busy the last several days. I'll just use this post to fill you in on my busy weekend. I did not have anything planned for Friday night so I used that night to get my shower gifts for 2 of the 3 showers I had this past weekend. Saturday I was up and going as soon as I opened my eyes. I had several things to do around the house before I went to my first shower at 1pm. And Addison had spent the night with us the night before so I spent a few hours with her as well. It was fun playing with her...I often forget how fun, innocent and imaginative a child's mind is. Precious, just precious. The first shower of the day was nice. It was a wedding shower for a friend that I grew up with. It was good to see everyone. My mom took Addison to the pool that afternoon so after the shower I decided to go meet them and try and soak up as much sun as I could before the next shower. The pool was wonderful, I just wish I could have been there all day! I had one more shower on Sat...it was a baby shower for one of my cousins. She got a lot of really great things! You might think that my day was over after that but nope, I then rushed home changed clothes and went with some friends to celebrate my friend's Jeff's birthday. It was a good time. Sunday, I had another wedding shower for a girl in my small group. So I went to that and then went to the church to serve on the production team that night. It was a great night of worship and the message definitely had me pondering on a few things. So that was busy weekend. I am still feeling very sleepy today! I am so glad this is a short work week...I plan to rest and relax as much as possible this weekend!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I love being an aunt

When I think back to when I first learned I was going to be an aunt it seems like just yesterday. I can remember all of the many emotions and thoughts I had rush through me all at once. They ranged from shock, to excitement, to jealousy, to sadness, to worry, and so on and so forth. See my sister is 3 years younger than me and here she was having a baby before me. I had always had it in my head that I would be the first to get married and the first to have children. But God was quick to remind me that things do not always work out as we see fit. I am so glad that things didn't go as I had planned though b/c I wouldn't have things any other way...

Addison McKenzie was born on August 10, 2002 and the world hasn't been the same since. I never knew I could really love someone as much as I love this precious little girl. The years are flying by and I can't believe that she will be 6 in a little over a month and starting kindergarten a few weeks after that! Where does the time go?! Addison is full of life and I can not imagine this world without her. She is my little ray of sunshine and I can always count on her to make me laugh. It has been very fun being able to watch her grow into the little girl she is today. She reminds me so much of my sister it is scary!

I do look forward to the day when I will one day be a mommy. It's something that I've talked and dreamed about since I was a little girl. I also have a dream of one day adopting a child or more than one, God willing. When I think about all the children in the world without parents my heart aches. So hopefully one day my future husband and I will be able to adopt and bring home children of our own. But until that day I plan on soaking up as much time with my niece Addison as I possibly can. I love you little bit!

Here are a few pics I took the other day.

 


 
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

So many great things...

I wrote the other day that if only every other day of the week could be like Friday...well today is! I am so excited today! My Dawgs won last night...one win away from the title! Josh Fields

And tonight at 7/22 William P. Young the author of The Shack will be there. I am really looking forward to hearing his story and his reasoning behind the book. The Shack is such a GREAT book. I absolutely loved it. It is one of those books you just can't put down. I highly suggest this book if you have not read it. If you are in the Atlanta area and you are a post-college single adult you should come and check out 7/22 tonight if you never have. I promise you won't be disappointed. :) And just in case you were wondering I'm gonna record the game tonight so I don't miss a thing...Ha!!!
The Shack

Monday, June 23, 2008

GOOOOOO DAWGS!!!!!!!

So..."The Dawgs" play tonight in the college world series! I am super excited about this. I am a huge GA fan! Baseball and Football are my two favorite sports. I grew up playing softball. Well, I actually started out playing t-ball with the boys. I was the only girl on the team. But then once I reached the age that the coach no longer pitches to you my daddy moved me to a different county to play with the girls. Remember, I was "Daddy's Girl". :) I loved playing ball. I didn't really get into football that much until I went off to college. I grew up a Dawg fan but somewhere along the way I lost my brain for a little bit and thought I would be a TN fan. I just had to be different. I mean what was I thinking orange has got to be one of the ugliest colors in the world! But that didn't last very long and I was back to my roots...Red and Black baby! So yes, I will be rooting for The Dawgs tonight but NOT the ones from Cali.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Just Thinkin

Well the weekend is over and tomorrow starts another work week. I should probably already be in the bed but I'm not. I seem to have so many thoughts running through my head lately ranging from minute to vast importance. It is very exhausting. One thing that I have been praying and thinking about for quite some time now is where God is leading me to. I am pretty sure that I know but still question if it is where is he leading me or if it is more of me telling myself that this is where is his leading me. I know that it is just going to take a step of massive faith to take that first step and know that He will guide me & be with me every step of the way. I say all the time that I have complete trust and faith in the Lord to guide and direct me but do I really? Why am I still sitting in the same place waiting for something miraculous to happen having known for well over a year where I feel God is calling me? Is that lack of faith and trust in the Lord or is that just my own human emotions holding me back? These are some of the questions I have running through my head constantly. And this is only one of the "things" that I am constantly thinking about. Maybe I should just quit thinking so much. That has always been something I do WAY too much of at times. Anyway, I have given this and the other things to God. I have to give them to him daily otherwise I really might go crazy. So I do trust that God has his hand on me and the desires of my heart. And I know that he has closed some doors but He has also opened up many more than he has closed. I do trust my God and I do have faith in my God. It is just all very frustrating at times I guess.

Friday, June 20, 2008

TGIF

Why is it that on Fridays I always seem to be a little bit silly? I guess b/c it is the last day of the work week or maybe because everyone seems a little bit more relaxed on Fridays. Who knows. But it never fails, on Fridays you can usually always count on me being in a wonderful mood, a bit silly & playful, and full of energy. I know I am full of energy today though b/c I went to bed right when I got home from work yesterday and slept until 9 then went back to bed at 10. I don't know what my deal was. :) Anyway, I guess I just wonder what it would be like if every other day of the week was like Friday.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

from random to deep all in one

I've been a slacker today b/c I have not posted anything. So I figured I had to write something. I had so many ideas last night of things to write about today but when it came down to it I couldn't really get very far with any of my ideas. I think about my passion for music and I want to share it with the world. Then, I think about God and how amazing He is, how He loves me, & His grace. Then, I think about being single and everything that entails (good & bad), and so on and so on. But when I sit down to write I can't really decide what to write about. Hence the completely random post I am writing this very second! I did start reading The Organic God by Margaret Feinberg last night and it is amazing so far! So I think I might go with that and give you a little insight into the book & some of my thoughts as I go through the book. Here is a paragraph from chapter 1 that I read last night. I just love this paragraph...

"I want to discover God again, anew, in a fresh way. I want my love for him to come alive again so that my heart dances at the very thought of him. I want a real relationship with him - a relationship that isn't altered by perfumes, additives, chemicals, or artificial flavors that promise to make it sweeter, sourer, or tastier than it really is. I want to know a God who in all his fullness would allow me to know him. I want a relationship that is real, authentic, and life-giving even when it hurts. I want to know God stripped of as many false perceptions as possible. Such a journey risks exposure, honesty, and even pain, but I'm hungry and desperate enough to go there. I want to know the Organic God."

This is exactly what I want...to know the Organic God. Any thoughts?

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I love the beach

Normally my this time every year I already know for sure when my vacation will be and where I will be going. We normally do a family vacation every year. Last year we did a family cruise to the Bahamas, Cayman Islands, and Mexico. I had the time of my life! The cruise and my trip to Hawaii are definitely my top two trips I've taken. Anyway, we aren't doing a family vaca this year b/c we are getting a pool! I'm super excited about the pool and can't wait for it to be done. However, I am dying to get to the beach. I love everything about the beach. It is somewhere I can always go and relax, think, get clarity, and have tons of fun! So I think that me, my mom, and a few others are gonna take a girls trip to the beach. We haven't done just a girls trip in quite a while! So this will be a very fun trip. There will be plenty of laughter and memories shared. Ahhh, the beach...

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sunday naps...

are one of my favorite things in all the world! I love to get up & go to church in the morning and then come home and take a nap that afternoon. I don't know what it is but there is just something about a Sunday afternoon nap that makes it the best nap of all! I will come home, change clothes, climb right back in my bed, and that is where I will be for at least the next 2 hours! I didn't think I would take a nap today since I got 10 hours of sleep last night but I was certainly wrong. I took a good 2 1/2 hour nap today! Oh it was wonderful. But now I wonder will I sleep well tonight?! I am sleepy once again so maybe so guess I'll find out in just a few...

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Confession

The things of this earth are not going to satisfy me and I know this. Why does anyone who has a personal relationship with Jesus Christ ever look to the things of this earth to try and find what you are looking for? It doesn't make any sense. I know that nothing of this earth will ever satisfy me I have to look to God to give me the things that I need to feel complete. The things of this earth are only band-aids to cover the hurt, the longings, the loneliness, the uncertainty that anyone feels. I get so mad at myself when I fall into that trap of looking for something to numb or stop the feelings. I do love, trust, and have faith in my Lord and I believe he has a plan for me. I guess at times I just get so frustrated and wonder "Are You really there, do you hear anything that I say?" I know he does and I know it is all about His timing. Patience, that is something that I have to pray for daily. And it will probably be something that I pray for for the rest of my life. I want to be a Godly woman that seeks and finds joy in the Lord. I'll be honest and say that I haven't been so great at that lately. I want others to look at me and say hey what is so different about you and where can I find it? But if I'm not showing & living that out daily it will never happen. How do you get back to the first days of becoming a believer and wanting the entire world to know? Why do we who have been Christians for a very long time just kinda start going with the flow and lose that fire? I remember when I had that fire and I want it back. I am very disappointed in myself b/c I have not shown others lately that God is #1 in my life and that I live my life for him. I've been living for me. I'm done, it isn't worth it. When you live for you there is no way you can be a witness. I want to be a witness. I want others who are unsure about what they believe or why they believe to know that there is a God in heaven who loves them more than anything & anyone on this earth ever could. I have such a heart for the lost and want more than anything for them to hear of God's amazing grace. But if I'm not living it in front of them what makes me any different than them? Nothing!!! I feel like I am rambling and repeating myself a lot. Basically, I want others to see Christ through me but I have to be living it every single day and I haven't. And for that I do apologize b/c I have not been a very good example of what a Godly woman is and that is what I want to be.

Friday, June 13, 2008

My Daddy

Sunday is Father's Day. It is also a day that is difficult for me since my daddy is no longer here on this earth. It has been 16 1/2 years since my daddy went to spend eternity with our Savior and I still miss him every single day. I was a daddy's girl that is for sure. I always wanted to help him with whatever chore he was doing. I can remember back when he was building mine & Peyton's playhouse I was with him every step of the way. I was pickin up pieces of wood and carrying them. My mom has a picture of me doing all of that...I'll have to find it. And the playhouse that I helped him build is still standing today. In fact, my niece Addison plays in it when she is at the house. I hope that my children will be able to do the same one day. What special memories! I can also think back to the days when me, my sister, and daddy would all jump on the trampoline together. He would make us go soooo high! Daddy was quite the jokester too. One time while we were on the trampoline we decided to play a trick on my mom. So me and my sister went running in the house and told my mom that daddy had fallen off the trampoline. She went running out there freakin out. And then when she got just close enough he popped up and grabbed her. Everyone but my mom thought it was so funny :) She wasn't very happy with us after the fact. Now memories like these are the ones that I try my best to remember on days when it is just a little more difficult than others. I don't like to remember the days when he was so sick. It was a very difficult two years for our family. Cancer is a very ugly disease. I still have many questions that I can not wait to ask God when I see him about the awful disease and why so many people have to suffer & die from it. But then when I think about it all really goes back to The Fall of Adam & Eve doesn't it? At least that is what we've been discussing in my small group the last several weeks. It almost makes me very angry at them. But that is an entire other subject...let me get back to my daddy. My daddy was a strong Christian man who loved his family more than anything. He loved "his girls" and he wanted to be sure that we were all (me, my mom, and my sister) taken care of. He was a very kind hearted soul and would have given you the shirt off his back if you needed it. And I've come to learn in the last two years since I've been working at Foundation Technologies, Inc. that he was a very hardworking man also. I work with a lot of the same people that he worked with and I've met a lot of people who knew him. Everyone always has such wonderful things to say and that makes me proud. I'm not gonna lie it can be difficult for me at times to work so closely to the people that my daddy worked with everyday. There have been days when I've just gone to the bathroom and cried. I miss him so much. But I am so grateful to have been able to meet these wonderful people and have them share stories & memories that they have of my daddy. I might not have ever heard them if I wasn't working with them. My uncle Frankie, my boss, tells me that I remind him a lot of my daddy. That also makes me very proud. I do hope more than anything that my daddy is looking down on me and is proud of me and the woman I have become. He wrote me a letter just before he died for my mom to give to me on the day that I went on my first date. It is something that I hold close to my heart. He just told me what kind of guy he hoped that I would date & look for. Now I'll be honest and say that I haven't always gone after the ones that my daddy would've approved of but as I've gotten older and my walk with the Lord has matured into a real authentic relationship I've found that what I am looking for is exactly what my mama and daddy want for me. Wow, this is really really long...I think I'm gonna stop here but I hope now that you might be able to know my daddy just a little & share my special memories with me. Don't forget your dad's on Sunday...they truly are special people...I'm so thankful that I was able to spend 10 great years with mine! I found a few pictures and I hope to add more to this later but until then here ya go....


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Music

So I decided that since I can't do anything without listening to music that I would add a playlist on here. This is one that I made a while back. I did update it a little though. Hope you enjoy it! Now it has been a VERY LONG day so I am gonna get some sleep. Yay, tomorrow is Friday! Good night!

What a Night!

Well, the cookout went very well last night. We had so much fun! The boys were 1st to arrive, then Amanda, then Alicia and then Lindsey (poor thing got a flat tire yesterday, so it was a stressful day for her). I started to get everything going in the kitchen & got a little help from Rob...who we gave the name "Chef Rob" for the night. But I guess since he is in culinary school that really will be his name. Anyway, all of the food turned out so good. We had BBQ Chicken (I made the BBQ sauce, so good), Corn on the cob, Asapragus, and Orzo Pasta Salad. I had cooked the chicken and pasta for my parents last week and they loved it so I wanted to try it again for more people. Rob took care of the grillin, Lindsey did the asaparagus, and I did everything else. I put the boys in charge of dessert though so we had Brownie Sundaes! They looked very yummy but I was so stuffed I couldn't eat anything else. And one of the best parts about the entire night was that the boys cleaned the kitchen!!! That is one thing that I hate to do but they were so sweet and cleaned it right up. After that we just hung out, talked, and laughed a lot. It was such a great night! I was sure to get my camera out at the beginning of the night to capture all the memories...here's a slide show...enjoy!


Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Summer fun

So when I think back to the days when I was in school and actually got a summer vacation it reminds me even more that I am a grown up now and those days are over...unless I become a teacher...not happening. But I do love the summer. I love the beach, the pool, sitting on a patio w/ a cold drink & listening to great music, cookouts w/ friends, etc. Speaking of cookouts...I am having a cookout tonight w/ some friends at my house. I'm excited to do this. I love to cook for others and I love to entertain. I guess I got that from my grandmother (MeMe)...well the cooking part & doing things for others at least. Since I'm still at home w/ my parents I don't get to do this as much as I would like but since they are in Vegas until Fri. I figured hey, why not! Doing things like this though does make me wish I still had my own place. I will soon, but this is just what I have to do right now. Anyway, tonight will be a lot of fun. My girlfriends and I have made some new guy friends and they will be coming as well. We all have such a great & fun time when we hang out. Our sides are usually sore from laughing all night. I will be sure to post some pics from tonight. So, what are your favorite things about summer? Anything that you miss?

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Finally did it...

So yes, I gave in and started a blog. I have been talking about doing this for some time now. I don't really know that I have anything to say that will be worth reading but I figured hey, why not join the craze world of blogging. I do often find myself thinking about something and then thinking oh that would be such a good blog. So maybe I will be better at this than I think I will. Who knows!

Does everyone wonder these same things when they first start a blog? Any pointers?